Dear God…

Dear God,

I’m sorry…

I’m sorry that I spend more time on my computer than I do talking to You.

I’m sorry that I come to You so often when I am broken, hurting, and lonely, and not before.

I’m sorry that You get my leftovers when what you deserve is my first fruits.

I’m sorry that I still doubt You even though I know you have never let me down.

I’m sorry I don’t look more like Your Son and instead I look so much like everyone else.

I’m sorry I still sin when I know good and well I have been freed from sin.

I’m sorry that I treat You warmly one minute and act distant the next.

I’m sorry that I don’t tell nearly enough people about You.

I’m sorry that I am often lazy in my faith.

I’m sorry for the times I am lukewarm.

But, I thank you…

Thank You Lord that You still listen to me even when I complain and grumble.

Thank You that when I offer You leftovers You offer me grace and compassion.

Thank You that I could never earn Your love, because I know I would fail, but instead You give it so freely.

Thank You that even when I doubt You, You never doubt me.

Thank You that Your love covers a multitude of sins.

Thank You for finding me, and rescuing me, and being with me always.

Thank You that when I lay my burdens before You, I am reminded that Your burden is easy and Your yoke is light.

Thank You that You are a God who allows me to come to you with each piece of broken me, each bit of tarnished girl, and that You never shame me or guilt me for the choices I’ve made.

Thank you for your Son, who I want to be more like, and who You gave to me, for freedom’s sake.

Thank You that You aren’t finished with me, not even close.

Thank You for bringing me gifts of tremendous blessing even though I am so undeserving.

Thank you that You are a good God.

Thank you.

Thank you.

I love you…

Sincerely,

Nicole

What would you apologize for? What fills your heart with gratitude?

original version of this post appeared on The Boy with the Thorn in His Side and was inspired by Alece Ronzino.

6 thoughts on “Dear God…”

  1. Nice concept. It’s admittedly hard to carry on a theoretically intimate relationship with someone who is arguably invisible – at least in the physical sense. Intimacy inherently suggests a two-way communication and shared affection; both of which are very subtle in the God-and-believer scenario. Doing so relies heavily on our ability to use our human creativity and attention to detail in order to notice and appreciate the nuances of God’s involvement in our daily lives. Doing so also, I think, works better if we appreciate the divine creative spark that can be seen in nature, art, music, and children’s faces and actions.

    I would apologize for spending so many years being positive that I had my faith nearly figured out – and similarly, I am filled with gratitude for the fact that he keeps nudging me in new directions – directions that cause me to need to trust him more.

  2. Love this!

    Dear God,
    I am sorry for my inability to follow through and to be the girl You’ve made me to be and that You died for me to be. But I am SO thankful for the rest you give me through your grace from trying to live up to be that girl and that you are satisfied and pleased with me because I am Yours.

  3. Dear God,
    I am sorry that I try and take control.
    I am sorry that I sometimes lust after your true perfection rather than resting on the perfection You have given me.
    I am sorry that sometimes I abuse your grace rather than just take it for granted.

    Thank you for slapping the reins or wheel out of my hands and pushing me back to the passenger seat where I belong.
    Thank you for giving my Your perfection rather than requiring me to meet it on my own strength.
    Thank you for second, third, thousandth chances to do things by your Spirit (in your Spirit?).

    You are awesome!

    I love you! Help me love you more!

  4. I’d definitely have to apologize for how I am constantly trying to orchestrate His will. All the times I feel like I know what needs to happen, but I guess God just needs a little push to get the ball running. Of course, I’m always willing to provide the push. On the flipside, I’m thankful that regardless of how many times I get in His way he never shoves me out of it. But rather, He gently lifts me away and sets me on the right path.

  5. Every Friday is Weekend for Prayer at my blog…and it’s similar to this…i got the idea after reading Job’s words when he said… may my words be written down on a stone with lead that my redeemer lives…i thought…hey…that is a modern day blog….something that goes on forever and can never be erased….

    so i did…

    I’m sorry Jesus for being selfish. But thank You for being so Giving and Good…to me undeservingly.

    1. Arny, what a great idea. I love it. I do Prayer Request Day from time to time and commit to praying for my awesome readers too. You’re heart for the Lord is so obvious and such a blessing.

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